One of the terribly trite but true things Christians often say is “Jesus loves you just as you are, but he loves you way too much to let you stay that way”. Jesus says in John’s gospel that he came that we might have life and also that the truth shall set you free.

I need to be set free. I know that I could love people better, I know that I could serve people better, I know that I could make a difference. But I need to change.

I’m reading loads at the moment, about mission shaped church, world as sacrament and about evil and the justice of God. It’s all good information and I desperately want to be able to articulate the things I believe about God in a much better, more convincing and compelling way, but I’d rather be a more compelling and convincing advertisement for the Grace and power of God.

In some ways it’s inevitable, change is a slow process and I am in such a different place to this time last year, I have much to be thankful for. But I long for more change and preferably today.

Maybe I need to learn patience or something!